Of Valentine's and disappearing men

Valentines day has always been one of those days i look forward to,for obvious selfish reasons. I looked forward to the treats and spoils of the day, the one day i got rewarded for being a good girlfriend, well i try. It was the one day i didn't envy my single friends. 

Well, this was going to be a little different, i was single this year. The last time i was single on valentine's day was four years ago, i went out on two dates; an afternoon movie with one guy and dinner with another. I got two bouquets of flowers and two bars of cheap chocolate, because that's what you get when you're playing. I was doing well. And so for the first time in 4 years, i looked forward to my first valentine as a single person. and the prospects looked bright, at least they did then. 

One thing i'm learning very fast as a single person is, unless someone asks you expressly for exclusivity, don't even assume anything, he is still exploring his options and so should you. So when the good month finally got here, i had one big decision that kept looming on my mind; whether i wanted a sunny beach weekend or a cozy fire lit cottage at the slopes of a mountain. In my head, he was going to go all out before he asked for exclusivity, because that's what i imagine happens. And everyday, i kept imagining all the good memories that would come out of it.

 Everything was going well with my imaginary plans when i got the text on Thursday morning. A short text saying he got an asthma attack the previous night and he was heading out to hospital. So i called, and it went unanswered. I sent a text to find out if he was okay a few minutes later but that too was not answered. Long story short, my valentine's date resurfaced on Sunday evening with a sick story, literally. And so for valentines, i was stuck in the house completing my assignments, in the company of my shiraz bottle. 

I have to say, for that one evening i almost called crap on all things love and mushy. but that wouldn't be fair now, I've had good Valentine's dates before. and for my second lesson as a single person, i'm learning not to try and understand why some men do what they do, because if he's into you, you wont have to wonder.

And here's an image my friend sent me, another sick friend who thought this might cheer me up.